Suicide Squirrel

by Shawn Anto

I was driving down CSUB Way
minding my own business

Can I ask you something?
really              ask                    you.
Can you be honest with me?
really                     honest

a squirrel lunges
from the bushes
to the middle of the road
Fuck. What hurts?
this    emptiness?

the brakes
shudders to a halt
up-right on its hind legs
with a giant nut in the mouth
just stood there frozen, unafraid
starring               right at me

Change the narrative—not always the victim
but struggling to             struggling to
play a different character
change the story.
& let your name gather
down the back  
what you                move without.

it just ran off to the other side
into a hole to hoard away

instead of burying for more, for once
just let               yourself out
of these holes
space                  so much space
you keep            hiding under.

 

Artist: Clashing Squirrel

Shawn Anto is from Delano, California. He’s originally from Kerala, India. He received his B.A. in English & Theatre at CSU Bakersfield and will pursue his MFA in Creative Writing at Columbia University this Fall. He was last seen on stage in Dreamers: Aquí y Allá. Past theatre credits include The Profane, “Gasoline”, and SubUrbia. His writing has been featured or are forthcoming in Reed Magazine, O:JA&L, Mojave Heart Review, and elsewhere.

One thought

  1. You keep hiding behind
    because you’re scared
    with love and lightness
    is difficult to be paired
    need kindness and time
    for hearts to be repaired
    but this fight is not over
    so better get prepared.

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